Finally back with some updates.. School's been crazily stressed and busy despite the little classes per week. Guess this is how a fiinal year student's should be like. Life hasn't been too smooth sailing.. (as it always havent been when Im here!) Stressed with school.. Endless readings to complete each week.. Lectures are horridly in depth into papers.. (we are basically studying about the works of recents research!!).. Project is starting soon since the plan for my project sounded to be something great. Hopefully all will turn out well that a paper could be published.. All of these could be summarized with just one word: Stressed!
Recently, I heard and read news about an issue that happened two years ago. Somehow, it just came to me.. That minds are the scariest thing ever. Our brains are so complexed and it tends to manipulate us when we decide to sink into emotional mood. I never ever once thought that I could get hurt so badly by a good friend. Like what a friend said.. Best pals are probably the worst enemies. This is just so true. It just kept me thinking.. What actually happened? Have I not done enough? Why do I get all the blame while the other party seem to be victimised? Is this fair to me? Talking out would probably be the only solution but hey.. I do not get that extra time to do so. I would rather spend that extra time resting my brain so that I could walk further till the end of my journey.
Life is filled with unpredictables. Why can't humans just be contented and not harm one another? Peace loving would do the the earth goodness and nothing else.. Ain't it? Does it ever make "it" happier to have hurt someone? So have I been a substitute for the past 9-10yrs of my life? Seems like all answers are directing at the word "Yes". Well.. Has it occurred to those gossipers that there are actually inside stories? Why would human beings be so superficial? Especially when you should be well educated and have learnt how to differentiate the right and the wrong? At times, being highly educated does not necessary guarantee a good character. In fact, I am glad to mix friends with people who aren't as educated. for the least, they would have one great thing in them: Loyalty. They might not be enriched with knowledge.. But they are definitely more amiable. Ain't it?
I am always glad to be who I am and have always strived to serve people better. But at some point of life, people tend to take things for granted and actually stabbed the hand who have treated them well. This is probably the scariest thing ever. We are complicated but created for whom we are. Probably, everyone should just learn to be more thankful and appreciative.. This is done NOT by just saying it.. In fact, show it..
Nonetheless, I have always filled blessed with the nice people around me. Although school has been pretty crazy, but I am still glad to be mixing with nicer people. Only if those words havent came to me, I would have been a lot happier? Ever since it came, it's been mind boggling and I have been questioning. Life's just filled with contradictions.
